I have been in the UK for just a few days and it seems like already so much has happened, though none of it according to any preconceived plan. No sooner had I walked through the door and been greeted by Nicole than I found out that my youngest brother had been badly badly beaten by an attacker on his return from a night at the pub with friends. It felt like I was in a game of chess and had to decide how best to respond to somebody else's move.
Anyone who knows my brother knows that he is not the kind of person to aggravate fights, in fact his pacifism may be genetic, something that most of my family have inherited. What I did notice though was my own thoughts of wanting revenge, wanting to get the person who did this to my brother. I am sure I was not alone in this, my two other brothers were walking the streets trying to find out what happened. We are pretty tight as far as brothers go, and we do look out for each other. At the same time it showed me what I might be willing to do as part of that bond.
I observed the thoughts of revenge, of wanting to achieve something that suited me, but I have not acted upon them and will not. It was just interesting to notice them arise in my consciousness and allow for a higher consciousness to take charge. I think of the tight bond that the Knights Templar had, how they were brothers together and stood by one another in the most challenging of times. When we act upon our emotions there is usually some kind of attachment to the outcome that only leads to further suffering. Without attachment I believe that the justice I seek in this case will come by quicker. It may never get resolved in a court of law, the evidence at the moment is purely circumstantial, but I do know and trust that a man who has done that to another can never escape himself. Hopefully the police investigating the case will ensure that he does not do this to others.
And so, no matter how much I would like to act out my feelings of anger, I know that it would only result in more suffering for me and for others. The attacker has sealed his fate, whether it is through the courts of law or his own life experiences. Our focus as a family has been on the healing of my brother, supporting him how we can. He is downplaying the injury and reminds me of the black knight in Monty Python and the Holy Grail; "It is just a flesh wound, I have had worse." The injuries are pretty severe and I am thankful that he is open to the recommendations of Nicole who specialises in somatic healing work with her energy healing practice.
Before I came out here I did receive a healing reading from a first nations elder who said that this trip would be healing for me on many levels and would benefit others who I had been like brothers with in other lifetimes. Perhaps it is the brothers that I have in this lifetime. I would never have guessed that my opportunity for healing would infold in this way. I have already shed tears over the idea that someone could do this to another person for no apparent reason. The fact that it was my brother brought it closer to home. Mindless violence saddens me. The attacker took nothing from my brother, despite him being in possession of a cell phone, money and a rather nice watch. Something else had compelled him to do this and that is what made me sad. The fact that somebody might carry this out for the sheer act of violence alone.
Whether this attacker was trying to prove something, whether he was high on drugs, or whether he suffers from some psychiatric condition, he has already altered the course of this adventure in Avalon. What I noticed was the ease with which I was able to yield to new plans for this trip and how, despite the severity of the situation, other plans new seem to unfolding in a much easier fashion. If I was in Avalon today I would not be delivering you high quality video productions, because I can barely keep my eyes open. Jet lag seems to be more challenging than usual. I also find myself with more time to study material related to the places I shall be soon traveling on this quest. I trust that the rest of this journey will unfold as it should, rather than as I think it should, but hopefully with fewer dramatic events. Either way, it makes for an interesting and healing quest.
Onwards to Avalon!
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